I need help in this loosing battle. I’ve been struggling with these monsters that are inside of me since September now. 7 months, I cant take this for much longer. this constant low. All I feel is self-pity and self-hate. I’m trying to pull myself out of this black hole but I cant, can anyone hear me? or am i locked up in my own screwed up reality bubble. I feel like i make everyone angry. I really do try to help and be nice but it seems like whenever i try to be considerate, i come off as mean. My family thinks that everything i do is try and start a fight, ITS NOT. I’ve Tried to ask them for help but they would probably think that was I’m trying to start a then fight too. There’s no winning with my family you do something right, you get yelled at you don’t do something wrong you get yelled at. Maybe its just me. it would just be nice to have someone one my side someone that would listen. I wish it wasn’t always me against the world. But I understand why people hate me. I hate me too. Its really weird to me when someone does something nice for me because it doesn’t happen often so i don’t understand why they would do something nice for me or why they would actually want to talk to me. I also have no motivation i just can’t get myself off my ass. I need help, please help me… anyone?
HeLp?
